and i feel like my eyes are wide open,
but my brain's dead.

yesterday was just damned what-ed.

training was really damn screwed up. tried back t1 and felt really foreign it in, like its the 1st time i'm doing it. even jiaolian says i lack the skill. now, he wants me to try back t2 or k2. or k1( bet he's joking ) think i'm damn lousy? nvm, have always been this way.

the call after training was really..added to my horrifying feeling after training.
Never expect it to be this way.

it's alright,
you can deny once, twice
and have all the backings you have
to support you,
to scare me (and her)
but one day,
the Truth will prevail. (:

that's just making me feel better.
this thing have really made me !@$#$!%@

(: